Tuesday, 29 July 2008

Dust to Dust

It is difficult to write or speak about the things that really matter.

Most people shirk away from the drudgery and indifference that are the primary reality of our twenty-first century daily existence.

Work, TV, fashion, clubbing, socialising, gossip, reading, music, blogging; anything to disengage from self-reflection and the brewing dissatisfaction it creates.

I have come to realise that the human penchant for 'more' is part of our creative design and is therefore, not intrinsically negative.

Self-reflection is essential to maintain sanity. Dissatisfaction is essential for progress.

However, at the crux of the matter, the truth is: It's all DUST.

Our lives, our loves, our work, our world are a drop in the sands of time.

This is why the importance of living, really living, cannot be overstated.

I sometimes go through periods where I am existing as a half-life; breathing, eating, speaking to sustain my body but disengaged in mind and spirit. Perhaps, it is important to mention that these always correspond with a low in my faith walk.

It usually takes a while for me to recognise that I am in a rut and this realisation only comes with honest self-reflection. This is a deeply personal experience and most of the people closest to me never notice.

Following realisation, I should immediately call out to God to breathe a new life in me and restore passion and energy within but, I seldom do this first.

Instead, I analyse and analyse and analyse prolonging my restlessness until I am honest enough to tackle the root of the issue which is invariably my yearning to sustain a better relationship with God.

It is then I call out to God.

In my limited life experience, the only thing that seems able to completely satisfy is God.

1 comment:

Daydreamer said...

I really relate to this blog, and like it says in Ecclesiastes, all is vanity. "Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy youth..." sums it up. He is the sustainer of our lives and without God life is meaningless.
Stay blessed!