Tuesday, 23 September 2008

Introducing MissITKNOWS: A Work in Progress!

This past week has been AMAZING!

For one thing, I learnt to take blood. Granted, I have not yet been succesful in getting some out of a human but the mere fact that I was privileged to try is AWESOME!

Also, most of my dearest friends are in London for the first time this year. Seeing them all has filled me with much joy.

In addition, I have met some fabulous new people and seen some others that I have known for a while in a brand new light.

and for those of you who like gossip, for the first time in a long time, I had an unpremeditated crush...

It only lasted two days, but at least for those 48hours, I allowed my giddy female element to rule my head!

It seems like finally I have learnt to be myself, MISS ITKNOW, without apology in most environments.

I know that this is not the most original of thoughts but, being oneself as much as is possible without caring about jugement is liberating. This is the ideal we all aspire to.

(However, it is necessary to be governed at least in part by rules of societal engagement that exist to protect individual freedoms.)

I digress, my actual point is that while I had a lot of fun this week, I could not shake off the nagging feeling that I was drifting with my head in the clouds...

I discussed this emotion with my girls and I came out with the following important points:

  • In my attempt to be real, I must be real to myself and not the cause of reality.

  • Being yourself does not mean you should over-analyse all your actions; it is OK to just have fun.

  • Know what each individual you associate with is: Acquaintance, Friend or "True Blood". I know that these categories are dynamic however, it is crucial never to overestimate. Enjoy each for what they are!

  • If you are talking too much then, all is NOT well; there is an inner hole you are trying to fill. Learn to listen. (This was a hard truth to swallow)

  • Do not judge people solely based on your own experiences with them. It is disrespectful to the complexity of human behaviour. People change, people grow, people are different in different circumstances; I have had a personal revelation of this recently.

  • Change comes from within, your external environment should be irrelevant.

  • Do not expect overnight redemption, as I have said before this is a journey, 2 steps forward, one step backward...

Tuesday, 16 September 2008

The Concept of Shame

Hey Guys,

Its been a while.

I miss writing my blog but unfortunately between personal illness, the Hospital and internet TV (Swingtown, Mad Men & Gossip Girl to be precise) I have been reduced to the occasional substandard post, like this one.

This obviously is unacceptable and I am working on a way to make it work! (more reasons why I should have gotten the crackberry instead of the Iphone... but the Iphone is soo pweety and shiny I had to get it!)

My favourite phrase of the last week has been "You have no shame". For those of you not familiar with "Itunu" phrases I will give you a brief summary:

Every couple of weeks, I savagely destroy a word or a phrase by sheer over use and misapplication. By the time I am done with it, it's original meaning and application is completely lost to all my friends and it is forever and ever etched as an Itunuism.

Two days ago while walking in front of the newly opened Ripley's Believe It or Not Museum in Piccadily Circus, I remarked, "London has no shame!".

This morning after watching the most recently released Gossip Girl episode following a period of great anticipation, I looked at myself in the mirror and remarked, "Itunu, you have no shame!"

When I saw the new line of Chanel looking pumps available for purchase at River Island, I shook my head and sighed, that River Island would do this fills me with sadness. Such behaviour is expected from the Primarks and New Looks of this world, but River Island? Clearly the British High Street has absolutely, positively no shame at all!

For my final example, I present to you in its entirety a message that I was sent on facebook. This has not been edited in anyway...

"Im Saheed Muritala" 28 yrs of age. a O.N.D holder. i need you if you in rested for a serious relationship. dont just see thie and delete it.. i'm a honest and open mind guy. im caring to those who know me. babe i can't swear but try me. good looking guy here in 9ja. thanx."

I rest my case.

Sunday, 7 September 2008

For the love of sleep...

This week marked the beginning of my clinical career but within all the excitement of the hospital atmostphere the thing most pertinent in my mind from my experiences this week is that I have remembered how much I love sleep.

Compared to next week this past week's schedule wasn't too bad. After all the earliest I had to get in last week was 8.30 am. (Next week is going to be a brutal 8.15!) However, the act of having to wake up at 6.30 to pray before I had a shower and got dressed proved tortuous for this somnophile!

I am going to need all of my will-power, love of medicine and fear of my parents combined to ensure that I do not begin and continue my medical career constantly flirting with tardiness.